It’s easy to wonder if there is a God and he loves me so much, why am I going through so many bad things in my life?
We certainly have had that opportunity this year!
In the last five months our youngest son has been hospitalized three times with pneumonia (which the last time he had to be intubated for seven days), my oldest son was hospitalized once for a concussion and then again with an unexplained abdominal event that bottomed out his blood pressure while his heart raced at the same time. That was followed by my youngest son breaking his leg which triggered an automatic CPS investigation into our family, because the law in Texas tries to protect kids with special needs.
Oh and my beautiful wife had to deal with a full police investigation where they treated her like a criminal because someone broke in and stole a bunch of money where she works. Insane, right?
I’m not telling you this to garner your sympathy but to testify to you that although all of these things were happening something surprising happened to us. Our faith wasn’t diminished it was strengthened.
I believe that we go through challenges not because God is punishing us in some way because we did this or that, NO, the Bible is clear that Jesus came to fulfill the law and absolve us from the curse of the law (see: Galatians 3:13). That simply means there’s no more judgment from God from my mistakes because he filters my actions through the blood of Christ which covers all sin.
No, it isn’t out of judgment that we see these types of calamity in our lives it is because our temporary existence happens to be in a place that’s broken. It’s the enemies of God that attempt to remove our focus on the one who saves us. The enemy knows that if he can get us to focus on our broken places and not on the one in whom all brokenness is restored then we fall out of worship to God and into worship of the enemy. Complaining about our struggles is simply glorifying the one who brought us into that situation. But, if we intentionally focus on Jesus in our struggles then the victory over that struggle is ours from the start.
I won’t sit here and pretend that through these recent struggles I didn’t question my faith, I did! I won’t lie and tell you that there weren’t times that I wanted to give in and give up because there were. Or that I was all smiles without a care in the world because I have super faith, because I don’t.
Faith isn’t about how many times we fall. It’s about how many times we get back up, raise our hands to heaven and declare that there is a God and no matter what I can see with my eyes I believe what God said in his word! “I am the head, not the tail! I am above, not beneath! I am a lender, not a borrower! By His stripes I am healed!”
There isn’t a ledger where God takes the good and the bad of your life and decides whether or not you deserve a blessing based on the sum total. Our blessings, healing, favor, abundance all come from the GIFT of righteousness! A gift given to us through the cross, all we have to do is open our hand and receive the gift!
Oh, I guess I should tell you that as sure as the sun shines God delivered us from all of these events. My son’s are healed, my wife was exonerated from any wrong doing and just this last week God intervened on our behalf with that CPS investigation. A doctor who cared enough to look at the broad picture of our son’s case discovered that because of the three hospitalizations with pneumonia, the steroids they had put him on were a contributing factor in why his leg broke and we were absolved, exonerated and our reputation as parents restored. Not because of anything we did, because all we did was try to hang on to our faith by a thread! That’s how much God’s love us!
My prayer for you today is that in your troubles you turn to God and never give into the temptation to turn away.