My New Direction
Things are changing.
Let me be honest with you. This year has been a bitch! I’m sorry if that offends some of you but the truth is plain and no other word can describe this year for us.
And you know something, I don’t think I’m the only one whose had this experience this year either. Now, I won’t sit here and complain about my year but bear with me for a moment while I describe it for you.
This year started out great. We’d managed to save up a considerable amount of money in our emergency fund. My business was starting to increase and then:
At the very end of March John-Michael got pneumonia and was hospitalized for five days. A month later he was in the hospital again for pneumonia and stayed for a week. Then in June my older son, Branden, fell off his skate board and got a concussion and had a hemorrhage in his brain. Then in July John-Michael was hospitalized again with pneumonia and this time had to be intubated. We stayed in the hospital for ten days that time. Soon after, Branden had a strange abdominal pain and was admitted to the ICU for a few days. The day after he was discharged from the hospital, I almost dropped John-Michael when he lunged over my arm resulting in him breaking his leg and because he’s a special needs child it triggered an automatic Child Protective Services investigation into our family. We were told its the law.
I think you get my point.
The only explanation we’ve been able to come up with is that we’ve been under a direct Spiritual attack. (If someone has a more plausible explanation, feel free to email me).
That’s why I refuse to complain about my circumstances. What we’ve been through is a lot to endure but we went through it and didn’t get stuck in it. Far too often I’ve found myself stuck because of outside circumstances or influences. Many times I’d blame others or use those circumstances as a excuse to wallow in my own pain and expect others to feel pity for me. But as I said in the beginning, I’m changing.
I believe that a trial is nothing more than a test of our character. How will I respond in a chaotic situation, that’s the real question. This year has been a “character building year” that’s required me to dig into my faith and resolve to trust God for the right outcome. And truthfully, I’m still in this trial.
I believe I heard from God that my tests are a testimony that need to be shared with the world for His sake. And not in a “look at me and what I did” way, but in a plain and simple honesty that is transparent enough to scare the crap out of me.
I don’t know what’s going to happen from here with this blog or with me but what I do know is that I have to follow where the Holy Spirit is leading me and I believe this is it. My message will be taking on a new direction from now on. I’m going to share things with you that I didn’t want to and still don’t want to share with you, because of how they expose the truth about me to you. But, I can no longer resist God’s direction for my life. My only hope is that my testimonies will serve to help someone overcome their own challenges.
God Bless you all and please pray for me to have wisdom.
“That which you gaze upon you become.”
Change your gaze, change your destiny!